Lisa Marie Russo Archuletta
Well, I wanna have a tribute of life. I got a new place, but I have to keep in my mind that my mother must’ve hated my guts or her husband because I’ve been completely shut out of everything and guess he has her ashes. I’ve got some pictures. I just probably should just get rid of because if she didn’t even let me enough to them want me to be part of her life? I don’t even know why she wanted me to come back here to be with her last thing she did was call me and say I’m bored. I love you. I’ll talk to you tomorrow tomorrow I never came and I don’t think I love you was genuine Because she loved Bob Smith more than anything or their lifestyle. I don’t know, but he took everything showed everything my grandfather had and apparently even though I have a beautiful brand new place I don’t deserve no memories other than pictures of the past with my mom everything that she Threw away basically what he told me what she put behind her, which was all of us to be with him and I hope he feels like a big man because I’m the only blood relative she has and if I find out that anything was forced or anything in my name, I don’t owe him nothing I don’t owe him loyalty. I don’t owe him love and I’m trying to just deal with the fact that my mom‘s dead and tell myself that she hated me and I have to just go on because it’s the only way I can live with it Somedays he told me once I’ve known you on your life you have no clue who I am. I don’t do anything illegal. I don’t do anything wrong. I go to church. I do read the Bible. I got a confession because I have to try to process the distain I have and I just want the truth out about everything how I feel he should do things that he made me do the things that he made her do the things that make me sick or just so selfish of him I just want the whole world to know, but that would probably put him in prison and maybe that’s what I want at least maybe then I could have like I don’t know a napkin that my mom cried on since he feels that he’s the only one who should own her ashes the tears she cried when she told me he hate her and why she was leaving because she didn’t feel prettier whatever when you’re put down because you’re too big or you can’t take care of yourself it’s a burden on a woman and it’s cruel and I still wanna be even 10 times cooler to him so I’m trying not to, so please pray for me and Well he’s kid has told her asses and doesn’t want to even let anybody know anything. I don’t know. Maybe there’s poison that he’s hiding I have no clue and he has no clue who I am and how I don’t have any reason to not be honest other than I’m trying to just I don’t know. I am so torn because she gave me one. She wanted me to get her. I have her baptism she consider him her soulmate and now there’s no way in hell if he isn’t even gonna let me be a part of my mom that I’m ever gonna go through any kind of want to separate her soul from my dad‘s in heaven he’s not my soulmate and he don’t care enough to even let me be part of her death so why should I did she hate me did she love me or she just an abuse woman and got caught up in a relationship with someone she thought loved her or just someone who just wanted to separate her from everybody she loved so he could turn him into whatever he wanted and take whatever she had I guess she should be the judge because you don’t wanna know my opinion.
