Matthew I love you so much... More then you could ever know... Always telling you I love you to the moon and back and back again infinity times for eternity.... Remember me saying i love you alot... And you saying "alot" and i would say "alot alot" and my favorite you responding singing back to me "🎶alalalalalala🎶" every night before bed... I miss that everyday... We are soul mates and we both knew it... I remember us talking about it all the time. You were/are and always will be the love of my life. Thank you for all you did for me... And for being there when I needed you the most. Living with you and Being with you till the end.. I will never ever forget you my love. I only wished we could have had the life we talked about and planned to have for our future... Getting married and having a family... We tried for a year to have a baby and I'm so sad we never got pregnant... We wanted a baby so badly together and we both wanted a little girl... We even named her eternity annalynne olson... I wonder everyday if we did get pregnant what she would look like... She would have been so beautiful and a daddy's girl (your little princess) I'll never forget our personal conversations we had.. We always laughed and finished each others sentences... Haha I remember us how you would say flowing together..(rapping sentences and I would add to it rapping over and over hahaha) I loved cooking you dinner as much as I could... Making you your mommad pit roast recipe mm mm. And you loving my taco stew... Omg you loved it.... Lol we laughed cause I said as much as I made in that huge pan it would give us yummy left covers for a week but lol we both but you mostly ate it in one day lol. Gosh so many more memories I want to get out of my head cause I just miss talking to you. I miss you holding me at night and tickling my back.... I just miss all of you. You were such an amazing man and I feel so sad that you couldn't see what I saw... I always said I wished you could see you through my eyes... Matthew David olson I love you and miss you so much. My fiance, my soul mate, the live of my life, my everything, my future, gosh my everything. You thought me so much... I tried my hardest with everything I had. I still have guilt but all I know is I tried so hard and what gives me some peace is knowing you did know you were loved more then you ever thought was possible and me knowing that because you told me everyday which I'm thankful for, knowing you knew I loved you as much or more back as you loved me more then I could ever know. I'm so glad we shared so many deep thoughts like those, you telling me I was your soul mate... All that again puts me at peace... You told me you have never been loved as much as I loved you and you loving me back the same. and that night you asked me to marry you and me excitingly screaming YES YES YES.. baby you'll forever be in my heart, forever be my fiance, forever my soul mate, forever in my dreams. I know you are still with me and I you k ow I knee of your struggles and always kept you in check lol... A
I love you alot alot... Alalalalalalala🎶.. For eternity baby. You would smile when I would loom into your eyes tell you I love you and saying "jamie Lynne olson" and you smiling saying yes!! I'll always miss those moments and you my live still are and always will be in my heart for eternity and beyond! I love you Matthew (my savior) we saved each other.
Love you always and forever and eternity,
Jamie Lynne Olson!!
P.s.: The picture of my niece your favorite little princess whom you always said we would have a baby girl as beautiful as her if that was possible lol... Her wearing the ring you purposed to me with.. I'll forever keep around my neck close to my heart baby!!!
